The non-dual understanding can be the dawning of a new kind of health. It is a health that might not look the way we expect, or think, nor might it look the way our society projects that it should. It is, first and foremost, the health of true happiness – that is, a happiness that is not dependent upon the state of the body or of the mind. This health is a release from the habitual patterns that block our natural and harmonious relationship with our environment, freeing us from attachment to the ups and downs of the objective realm.
Any perspective on the past is relative – what we can say about it is never absolutely true nor entirely accurate. Stories are for the individual, and our experiences are always subject to the uniqueness of our body/minds. Nonetheless, a story can help us reframe our experiences, and it is in a simple effort to find a new relationship to the past that I write a little bit about my own here:
“It hit me like the flu – I can remember the exact moment I realized something was off. I was at a patio party in Montreal, I was 19, and all of a sudden, I was struck by some kind of psychic lightning bolt, and everything went dark. It’s hard to describe that…at the same time, I was dealing with the emotional intensity and the demands of an acting degree, and that shadow that I had been hit with at some point exploded into something of a whirlwind of aggressive energy. Soon, I believed I had to run barefoot to the airport to fly to South Africa and be reborn as a lion. I was put on some meds and I soon started to function better, and somehow I even managed to finish the degree. That was the first of several trials of that same kind over the next handful of years. I was being doggedly followed by a spectre of some kind, until, finally, I befriended the one who needed to be heard.”
That was my story – at least, part of it. Perhaps it doesn’t need to be a big deal anymore. Some people seem to find the resolution of their story in the world, or in their art, or in something else, somehow – to each their own. For me, it seems, ‘recovery’ was really in the dispelling of spiritual ignorance – and absolution was always going to be in the real knowing and being of infinite consciousness.
There is a primary element of experience, one that is independent from all illness and all health and all the rest. The spiritual possibility, as suggested by sages of all eras, is that what we are all really looking for – Happiness – belongs to another order, another dimension of reality than all the phenomena we perceive. That dimension is always present, for it is the dimension of the real Self. It is consciousness, and it is the guiding force of our lives…and we are in good hands…