the body is a friend

once-hidden bodily residues of ignorance left their indentured traces on the landscape of body-feeling; always fated to be filled again into natural plenitude with the smooth clay of consciousness, maker and remover of all samskaras.

as first we feel the sensations present as our body, we may primarily experience a habitual psychological pattern laid down since childhood: a ‘mental’ body consistent with a particular body-image thought. gradually, as the body is encouraged to tell its story (not the mental-historical storyline but the body’s natural, sensory ‘tale of itself’), and always with consciousness as guide and container, the personal psychology tied in with body-sensation and image is liberated from the thinking mind. soon we simply feel sensation without the interference of a mental story; this can be a particularly abrupt and palpable shift once we have noticed the infinity of our consciousness.

in other words, when consciousness has been recognized as infinite, universal and free, the body has an infinite container with which to liberate itself into expansion; and after the primary non-dual recognition, it is only a matter of time before the body regains its natural status as light and transparent, vibratory, tranquil and joyous.

the important element of any body-approach, if the goal is liberation from bodily-suffering is to, and only as much as is possible in any moment, resist the urge to apply a mental agenda to a feeling. the body has its reasons, and always unfolds in time; but rarely in the neat and tidy way that the mind might like. what’s essential is that in a moment of availability and enthusiasm, we allow ourselves to really feel, as if for the first time. the unconscious zones of the body, hidden from habit, will reveal themselves as time goes on.

the body is a friend.

the regaining of our natural, open, happy body is an important step on the spiritual path – but the realms of energy, sensation, and psychosomatic creativity continue to diffuse into ever-deeper, wider rings. the mysteries of the inner world continue to infuse a life informed, if the interest is there, in harmony, celebration and love.

changelessness

happiness is the experience of consciousness knowing itself, loving itself, being itself, perceiving itself. it is our ever-present nature, but may seem hidden by layers of belief in the mind; and so, a more immediately recognizable word for what we are is consciousness, because while we can seemingly deny that we are happy, it requires much more mental gymnastics to deny that we are conscious.

we know we are conscious, completely.

there are many realms of mind. layers of mentation tend to unveil themselves over time, progressively, the mind sinking deeper into its source and widening in its expanse. mind is motion, ever-changing and developing.

what we are is
changelessness;
formlessness,
shapelessness,
desirelessness itself.

we are not the products of consciousness,
we are That, and we are aware of its expressions.

mind and consciousness

mind as objective experience can be subdivided into various elements, like various minds, or the function of ‘thinking’ specifically – but for most intents and purposes, ‘mind’ is an umbrella term for a collection of perceived objects.

for instance, your thinking mind is the collection of objects known as ‘my thoughts’.
or, your human mind is the collection of objects known as ‘my perceptions’.
or, a global-human mind is the collection of objects that appear as ‘all humanity’s perceptions’.

the limitations of all these definitions is that they are objects perceived by consciousness. in other words, no matter how you slice your definition of mind-as-objects, the primary limitation of it will be that it is perceived.

i.e. You, consciousness, are not your mind.

mind is perceived; consciousness is that which perceives it
mind is made of consciousness; consciousness is not made of mind
mind is a collection of objects; consciousness is the reality of them

mind-at-large is the motion of consciousness – and consciousness is its perceiver.

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nothing that has ever arisen in mind (that could mean thoughts, sensations, mentations, perceptions – anything objective) has ever touched or stained or perturbed or affected consciousness itself in any way whatsoever.

but – and here’s the rub – although the word consciousness points to its referent, ‘I’ – the thought of consciousness, as well as the ‘I’ thought – are just that, thoughts. they are perceived. the mind is an objective perception, and that includes all its thoughts about consciousness. nevertheless, the consciousness-word is a good one, because it points directly home. it’s a true word, if any word could be representative of what we are, because it is one that expresses the fact that we are conscious – awake, present, and ‘here’, in the sense that consciousness is the ‘central core’ of anything that arises, it is the true reality of here-and-now.

we are consciousness, we are not the consciousness-thought.
the consciousness-thought/word is a helpful pointer and tool, but we perceive it.

freedom is to see ‘I am not my mind’ – through and through, beyond all its vicissitudes. this is not a demeaning negation of mind or of thinking, but on the contrary, a celebration of thought and objective experience’s true place as a reflection of our natural joy – a place which mentations assume when seen as secondary to the reality that perceives them.

it is not that there is nothing

It is not that there is nothing.

There is something – here and now, present. Something undeniably is, or, in other words, there is reality to this.

This reality, present, here and now, cannot be known other than through direct experience – for what do we ever have or know but a direct experience of our own reality?

It is the same nameless Being we all find when we look: there’s no other show in town.

Awareness is the fact of experience. We cannot deny, at any moment in space or time, the fact that we are aware. Everything else is subject to relativity; never Awareness itself.

Our infinite and constant companion, closer than close, it is our real Self.

It is not that there is nothing, for there is reality to this.

nothing that disappears is lost

nothing that arises lasts;
but nothing that disappears is lost –
for there is only one substance in reality,
that of Awareness itself.

if there were more than one substance,
there would be more than one reality,
because the substance of the thing is the reality of the thing,
when you boil it down to its essence.

that there is only one reality cannot be proven through words
(though if there were more, would they not arise in a greater One?)
however, it is a suggestion to explore, to investigate, to muse over,
and to follow this deep intuition and enthusiasm,
that leads to openness, and to the possibility that –

everything and nothing,
formlessness and form,
Being and Existence,
are never opposed,
and always not-two.

our reality is unstained by separation:
there is no possibility of separate selves.
separation is simply a suggestion provided by a weary mind
collapsed under the weight of a simple conditioned belief.

in terms of That Which Has No Opposite,
we can but offer a word to the experience,
and a word is a pale object indeed
compared to what it stands for.

to see with eyes unclouded

this pure Being, limitless Awareness,
self-evident and evident-in-reality to itself alone,
a cosmic echoing chamber for the thoughts of the Infinite,
resolves in its nature to unfold
like flowering morning petals in the sunlit mist.

without the veil superimposed by the belief in fragmentation
the experience of Presence is revealed:
now the thoughts spring forth from a new source,
soon the body comes to rest once again in its natural satisfaction…
and slowly, slowly, the remaining elements of dynamism
– like relationship, interaction, and activity –
become ever more harmonious expression of this Love-of-what-Is.

with the eyes of insight, all it takes is an instant
to look clearly at the evidence on the docket –
to realize that this Consciousness shares none of the limitations
of any object we can ever perceive,
and yet, it is inexhaustibly Real.

its undeniable Reality is the essential Reality of all there is…

Consciousness is Real;
Reality is Conscious;
there is only one Reality.

it’s not an intellectual exercise,
it’s to see-without-seeing,
to recognize what is really here,
perceiving our experience all the time,
perceiving Itself, in fact, eternally.

this is the journey
  to see with eyes
    unclouded

behind the curtain of belief

in a moment of true availability, when the curtains of belief are withdrawn, what is glimpsed could be called that which is real. it is real because it has always been and will always be, because it is the home-ground of all experience, because it cannot be removed from its Being…it is a conscious reality, knowing itself independent of any cause or any premise. it does not become conscious, as its unchanging and irreducible nature is always consciousness. it is this very consciousness reading these words, the one that perceives and exists, this numinous entity which creates and sustains the cosmos. 

so what is a moment of true availability?

it is a moment of not-knowing, where we somehow suspend the belief to be a limited consciousness. we have to be honest – what do I really think and feel and believe myself to be – we have to be truly open to the possibility that consciousness is universal. this openness does not come from having an agenda to find something for a small ‘me’ – for the ‘me’ that would find something is already the assumption of limitation. instead, the availability comes from the innocence of an open desire, or love, for the truth. it’s a moment of honesty, and it’s a moment of grace. this moment is the initiation into the journey of Peace, which stabilizes itself, and deepens into the various realms of our life over time. it’s not that we become insusceptible to feeling and thinking we’re a separate entity after this moment – but somehow the deepest root of that belief has been severed – and if the post-awakening sadhana as it’s sometimes called is undertaken, we eventually learn to live our lives from this freedom.

that would be a way of speaking about awakening from the point of view of a human mind.

however, the moment is not really a moment – it only seemed that way from the perspective of a body/mind. our nature is timelessness itself. it only seems that somehow, in a certain location within time and space, consciousness has stopped believing itself to be a separate reality among many, and now, in a more or less stable way, remembers its universal nature. this is all a concession to the belief in limitation, an attempt to paint a picture of a journey from our original silence to nowhere else. in truth, there’s nothing to say about awakening – there’s only always been consciousness, it’s never known anything else, and primordial Peace has never even been veiled – not from consciousness itself which always remains in its home-ground. from the perspective of belief, perhaps, Peace was temporarily veiled by thoughts and feelings on behalf of a limited entity, but in truth, consciousness was only ever itself. there never was anything else to be.

that’s why many non-dual teachers speak ill of the seeming emphasis on awakening in spirituality – it’s a storyline, ultimately one that makes no sense from our true nature, and like any storyline, it can be appropriated to the mind that dreams it up. it becomes a fantasy, an escape from reality instead of an investigation into it. but at the same time, we have to acknowledge that psychological suffering has at its root the belief to be a limited entity. if we don’t acknowledge that – if we just say something like ‘everything is relative, there’s no Absolute truth, suffering and happiness are flip sides of the same coin’ which is a common refrain – then we’ve fallen into the trap of duality, the belief that consciousness is relative – and there’s always suffering around that corner, whether we admit it or not. in that sense, we can talk of awakening in relationship to suffering. if there’s suffering, an open investigation into the root cause can relieve it, eventually, by initiating us into the journey to be free from ignorance.