a break of light

the infinite
that perceives
this experience

is of no shape or form

ever-aware
ever-present

untouched by all the vicissitudes of living
and intimately one with them

the motion of our motionless consciousness is

this momentary unfolding,
this kaleidoscopic mirage of perception,
this revelation of sound and space.

there is no duality,
there is no separation,
there is no subdivision;

there is only Presence.

in the silence of being
emerges a break of light,
the vibration of form,
the foreground of consciousness.

in yoga we explore the foreground-elements of awareness
as a humble offering towards the silence we Know,

without agenda, without goal, without appropriation;
or, rather, with the clear orientation of revealing these tendencies of thought.

there is no end to yoga, just as there is no end to being-existence.
there may be steps along the way from which we do not look back,

for instance…

there may be a time when the body loses its sense of density, heaviness, dullness. there may be a time when the belief in a separate doer in-the-body dissolves to more subtlety. there may be a time when perception itself reveals the silence of the non-perceiving beyond conceptualization.

but these are rather empty, fruitless words.

what matters is this experience, right now.

Can I love what I feel?
Can I love what I experience?
Can I love what presents itself, this play within the infinite?

and completely dissolve into that generosity,
wherein the foreground and the background
are known, or unknown, as you like…

wherein the stillness of Peace
lives in harmony with 
the movement of Joy?

Peace, we could say, is the background, the most essential self,
Not really a ‘feeling’ –

Joy, we could say, is the foreground, the fact that there is Life at all,
Not really an ‘ecstatic state’ –

It is to say Yes, ultimately –

To Beingness, to Stillness, to Silence.

AND

To Life, to Motion, to Vibration.

Under the Cool Moon

there is a collapse
of walls held round the heart
and then the reflected light of the body
graces itself to love again:

a slow walk under the cool moon.

it’s not a big moment
it’s not a big event
it’s not an enlightenment
god, to only let go of that word,
we’ve all done our work!
let’s remember what we share

it’s a slow, gentle, patient falling away:
snow drifting onto parched earth
and melting in, deep, through
muscular tissues and fascia
into the cells and marrows
of memories laid down
time before time.

there’s also a sharpening to this,
a grinding away of ignorance’s block
it doesn’t all feel like snowflakes –
but this part comes with that satisfying feeling of
pulling apart pieces of old dead flesh
making way for the light to cascade through

light that is living
that’s beyond care
light just for light

it’s animal and beatific
it’s pure and it’s rude
it’s a divine melting
and a burning crash

This isn’t really for angels.
I mean, I don’t know any.
Do you?

life is red and black and blue and white
and everything else for that matter
it’s a symphony
it’s all transparent

it is

The Key to Peace

What is here?

Seeing, hearing, smelling, tasting, touching;
Thinking, feeling.

The senses, the mind and the body.

All are perceived by the same consciousness.
And this consciousness is self-knowing.

It may seem like there is only the body, the mind, the world,
and the consciousness is distinct:
but what do the body, the mind and the world arise within?

Consciousness is often likened to a ‘space’ where all these perceptions arise.
In fact, the world is not ‘outside’ of you. It is inside. Everything is inside.
The body sensations arise within the conscious ‘space’ –
an infinite welcoming presence waiting for our joyful surrender.

Where would the body, the mind, the world arise within other than in consciousness,
other than in the reality that perceives?
All perceptions are within you, within awareness.

And what is the substance of these perceptions, what are they really?

They are perceived by consciousness, in consciousness,
and they are made of consciousness.
There is only consciousness.

This consciousness we are has no border or boundary,
no shape, size, or texture,

it Is,
it is Aware,
it is Present,
it is Real,
it is Limitless Perceiving.

When was this consciousness born? When will it die? Will it die?
Or is birth and death a sentence given to objects, for that which arises and which must eventually fall?
But consciousness – when have we experienced it arising?
When have we experienced it falling?

It’s always been with us.
It’s always been us.
It’s always been.
And it will always be.

Consciousness is Eternal Life.

Because that which Lives, that which is truly Alive, is that which perceives, that which creates and sustains the forms,
itself not subject to the rules and quandaries of impermanence.

Everything is impermanent, but consciousness is not a thing.
It is what is truly permanent.

And in it, we find Peace.

Peace that is not subject to the comings and goings of any event or any object or any situation or any relationship.

Peace that is in fact causeless, timeless, permanent.
Our very nature is Peace itself, whether we know it or not.

And the key to rediscovering this is simply to notice
and to fall in love with our very

Consciousness.

The Path to Reality

This is what I think the path is, at least the first stretch. Really it’s the path to the path, the path to the initiation, but it’s the part of the spiritual journey you hear about the most. It’s not the end, it’s really just a new beginning, but there’s a path towards it, and this is how I see it these days:

First of all…

It isn’t a theoretical path. It’s an experiential one. It isn’t really a path for the mind, it’s a path to what’s beyond the mind. (Which has always been, but you have to realize it, and that’s what happens.) It’s not a path for the mind but it has to be communicated somehow, and words, and the thoughts they form, are the quickest means to deconstruct belief systems, it seems.

That’s what this part of the path is about, it’s a big rug-pull under the kitchen table holding your Big Belief Sandwich.

The reason, by the way, people write about non-duality (hopefully): is not to advance some grand scheme or theory for the mind but in a deconstructive sense – to deconstruct what was previously held to be true, for the one reason that there are beliefs we hold about reality (namely, that we are separate from it) that cause us suffering.

With that said, the path to the path beyond suffering is, in fact, very simple:
you just have to realize the reality of your awareness.

It’s always been real. It doesn’t become more real or less real. Nothing happens to it. It’s just, first, you realize ‘Hey, awareness is real’.

What do I mean by real?

I mean, that you know that you are aware, with 100% certainty. Always have been. Any time you check, awareness is there. And everything else, you don’t know, this might be a dream, but the awareness part is real.

You know you are aware. I am aware, awareness is real.

Then you’re sitting under a gate (a gateless gate), that says ‘Awareness is Real’ in gold letters above. And you sit there for a while, knowing full well that awareness is not a body, or a mind, or a world, having no idea where else to go. And eventually the gate opens and you’re pulled in and when you look back up at the gold letters above, they’re flipped around from this side and now they say:

‘Reality is Awareness’.

Or whatever words come to you that signify The Infinite-Eternal Self, which is actually more like a silence than gold letters, but there you have the limits of blogs.

This is all figurative, by the way, the words are just pointers and can be replaced any number of ways. There’s no literal gate, but somehow you’re still taken to the other side of your preconceptions.

You discover, in your own way, that awareness and reality are synonymous. There’s only One, one awareness, one reality, one indivisible Self, and You are That.

Awareness is real, Reality is Awareness. It’s just about realizing the reality of your awareness.

The truth is, this is always the way it’s been:

Our reality has always been awareness, we just think and feel that we’re separate from it when we’re not. We are always That, The One Being seeming to take many forms.

The good news is that the ticket through the gate is the Love of the Truth, and the other good news is that the gate is a gateless one. You, awareness, are already in your steady Home,

the place beyond time and space where we all

(ALL of us)

meet, in the end.