Being’s Rest

early in the morning, just before waking
the body wrapped in a cocoon of sleep;
there is Pure Presence without differences.

just as

late, upon falling asleep,
the body relaxing joyfully into deep rest,
Consciousness remembers its infinity.

in the waking state
where objects arise, shifting multiform,
Awareness plays the game of a seeming-duality,
where in Reality, its rest remains absolute.

and the dreamed world at night
whose objects are less dense:
a translucent half-way point
towards Silence.

birth and death,
moments in time,
space-bound events in a life;
Awareness is free of all
the transformations
that we may believe
depict its bounds.

at any moment, there is only the meditation of consciousness –
which includes all its arisings –
but is never limited to them.

Being is always at Rest.

layer by layer

the infinite light of consciousness
touches, through the filter of attention, an object;
illuminating it with its self-knowing presence…

the body, object par-excellence,
is one such vehicle lit by Consciousness
and which dissolves, layer by layer,
into a felt-understanding beyond any thinking process –
that what I Am is truly not-separate.

it is through loving attention and interest
that the thawing of these layers of lightness begin to subsume
the density and heaviness and neurotic tension
that sometimes seems to be ‘just the way it must be’;
there is a world beyond this assumption
waiting to be discovered –

all that’s required is openness, courage, love.

concepts don’t hold much weight there,
it is a path of the felt-sense,
it is a path of offering all sensation
to be returned to the depths
of the ocean of our eternal Being.

The Radiance of Silence

To True Silence:
not the silence of the mind,
nor the silence of sound,
but the silence that lives in the Heart of our Being…

to this Silence, we are bound.

ever-present as the background,
the wellspring of infinity,
waiting – always, just on the other side of Form –

this is the True Silence to which all reverence is due.

it is the silent response in answer to the question ‘What Am I?’

the exhalation of breath
subsumes into a stillness..
there is a pause, before the birth of the Inhale,
where this Silence can be felt.

it has been called – turiya – the non-objective state –
that which resides over waking, sleeping, dreaming…

in this space before the inhalation,
all of our arrogances and presumptions,
fears, desires, appropriations, objections,
all are offered as silent sacrifice to the Absolute,
and she churns them, in her fireplace of Creation
towards the explosion of life that comes with each in-breath.

For True Silence is not nothing;
It is Being,
It is what Is,
and in Its inestimable creativity,
it is that which births the cosmos and Life,
as this radiant display of energies playing the multitudes of a cosmic embrace,
energies mirrored in the subtleties of the body itself.

True Silence is not death,
It is the Silence at the heart of Life, eternally…
It is the Light of Awareness, this
The Open Radiance of Silence.

Freedom to Love

Love is our innermost;

It is a natural outpouring
that expresses itself, continuously,
from the inside out and from the outside in,
where, in fact, it can be seen that the inside is the outside,
and all this play of manifestation arises in the heart of our Being.

When we set aside our habitual barriers of assumption –
about the way things ought to be, about who I am and who you are,
what remains, inevitably, is Love.

But true love is Free, it is not bound by any rules of the mind, so:

if we believe love belongs to us, or to another person –
if we believe we are owed love from our environment –
if we believe we have given too much love and now we must close our hearts –
then Life will always find a way to prove us wrong.

Love doesn’t belong to us; we belong to Love.
Love isn’t owed to us; we are Love.
Love cannot be given or received, it is not a quantity that can be gained or lost;
but, to be sure, the only way to be truly hurt in life is to close your heart for good…

Love is the natural expression of our Freedom;
and Freedom is the natural outcome of a genuine Love for reality.

Perhaps you’ve noticed:
the thought patterns that we hate in ourselves,
the people who we feel cause us our biggest problems,
the aspects of our body that we don’t like at all,
these things never quite go away, and they continue to haunt us –
until we discover how to love them.

It seems to be a rule of life:
When you truly love something, it begins to free itself.

Now, why would anyone love the patterns they hate?
Simply because there is nothing else…
Because life has given you this – and so, it’s for you.
It is a gift to discover.

And perhaps the thoughts don’t even change;
perhaps the troublesome neighbour doesn’t even notice;
perhaps our body doesn’t look different at all on the surface;
but in an innocent and earnest attempt to love, we will always notice a difference.

Because Life is Love.

And because, when you love life, life loves you –
and that’s all there is to it.

the nature of all experience is happiness

the nature and substance
of all experience
is Happiness
(sat-chit-ananda)

by going in towards the ‘substance’ of Consciousness
  through the portal of What Am I? –
we find the irreducible essence of our Beingness,
…Inner Peace…

then, through a full embrace of life,
the avenues of sensation, thought, perception,
begin to express this beatitude –
they resonate with the light of joy, their source.

these mind-objects find their natural place when they are celebrated as secondary to the reality that perceives them:

concepts are helpful and can be beautiful for what they’re worth;
and yet they all are, eventually, grist for the mill…
never completely true, always immediately offering themselves to the Silence of the present.

body-sensations can be an expression of unknowable wonder,
and can present another path Home;
and yet, sensation is always supplementary to the raw being of consciousness.

sense perceptions offer us the beauty of witnessing the world from a locality in space-time,
and they too can be followed back to the infinite ground in a movement of Love;
and yet, just as we know that all ‘this’ will fade,
this world and our present perception of it is but a brief sojourn in the eye of Siva –

a blink and it’s —

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so it is Happiness, our real nature,
that is our Eternal home-ground –
waiting to be rediscovered.

and, always, Happiness is our present play-ground,
in this world of form (even if we briefly seem to have forgotten),

Happiness is our Nature

Now, forever, and

moment
to moment

to moment.

what does consciousness ask

this infinite consciousness,
completely whole,
absolute,
imperturbable,
that wants and needs nothing beyond itself:

what does it ask of ‘me’?

well…
first of all,
it asks of this moment,
that it should be.

exactly as it is:
not one iota out of place.

the entire cosmos has aligned exactly for this, right now…
there are no independent entities that could have affected the circumstances…
this very experience, without exception, is the providence of a universal will.

there is only one reality,
and it flows as the freedom of life’s movement,
its natural intelligence.

…but of ‘me’ – this body and mind…?

it’s a good question.

I would suggest that first
life asks us all to open to a possibility
beyond ‘me as a separate entity’.

that doesn’t always come in the form of an explicit spiritual search –
though the spiritual search is, as I see it, the culmination of freedom from the belief in separation.

it can come in service, for instance:
doing something that lies beyond the fringes of self-interest..

it can come in creativity:
creating something new, which always come from outside-the-box of the ego…

it can come in simple ways:
a smile to a stranger, a good meal with friends, a moment of laughter…

ways and moments of freedom,
ultimately of happiness,
these are where we are all directed,
is it not?

so, what does consciousness ask of me?

it asks us to, first, discover the happiness of living impersonally…
and that is the destiny for everyone.

and then…who knows…there is no agenda…

this impersonality emerges in time and space through the form of each of us –
and we owe this opportunity of existence as individuals to the reality we are –

Life didn’t make a mistake in putting you here!

perhaps the question why am I here?
has no literal answer.

but the fact is, we are here…
and this moment is its own purpose…

so:
what does consciousness ask?

only consciousness could answer…
and it does, and will, through the way this
very life
moves through you
and your life –
an individual, beautiful expression
of cosmic creativity.

backdrop and foreground

consciousness is both the backdrop and the foreground player upon the stage of life…

however, experience can be subdivided into the phenomenal and the noumenal.

the phenomenal is that which dances, acts, plays, and moves,
that which is witnessed, that which is perceived as objective existence,
that which lives and is born and will die,
it is consciousness-in-motion.

ruled by the metres of time and space, the phenomenal is the realm of the body/mind.

the noumenal is that which perceives, the ultimate reality,
that which never comes and never goes,
that which is limitless, boundless, eternal and free,
the true, imperturbable self,
empty of concept, percept, or object;
it is the absolute, it is unshakability itself,
it is that which truly is and which will never cease to be,
it is consciousness-at-rest.

unruled by any limit or form, the noumenal is the realm of consciousness, Brahman.

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yoga means to yoke, to tie together, to bind.

these two realms – objective phenomena and non-objective infinity, are yoked in our sadhana through the exercise of conscious yoga: the permeation of the non-dual understanding through the body…and into all other realms…

it is the body that is the bridge from the limitless into the time-bound.

so the true non-dual yoga (as I see it) is first to understand, and then to feel.

understand your reality as infinite Consciousness,
and feel the present sensation as the doorway into the unknowable.

…without agenda, give yourself to the felt-sense of Now…

in other words…

know yourself as infinity;
feel yourself as the expanse of this moment…

the rest lies in the hands of the unseen.